Back Then

Back then reckless, caught a charge, the judge made you sit.
We never bonded, we never clicked.

By five he made me suck his dick.
The size of my mouth made it feel thick.

At the hands of your brother.

Left unprotected, you were addicted, unfit to be a mother.
I was number three, and yet after me, you had my brother.

At 32 I was lookin for my mother.
Every year was a new year, same you, new summer.
But 18’ you remained clean, I thought I met my mother.

Until you charged me up about being molested.

I gotta admit, it was hard to accept it.
I apologize for what I expected.
I was wrong to expect it.
But because I knew what I knew, I had to respect it.

Back then you were reckless, caught a charge, the judge made you sit.
We never bonded, we never clicked.

Disappointed but my heart never stopped.
I was confused, but I wasn’t shocked.

I understood, if you couldn’t love you, how could you love me?
How could I expect you to be what you never had to be.

A mother.

Back then you were reckless, caught a charge, the judge made you sit.
We never bonded, we never clicked.