Crawling through the front end of this life,
I felt so cheated, paying price after price.
What I enjoyed wasn’t his design.
My parents were my parents, but they weren’t mine.
I was hurtin so bad, but it wasn’t my time.
I couldn’t understand why he kept me alive.
What I wanted.
What he planned—
It didn’t align.
I ignored that part.
I ignored my heart.
My ignorance, the highest of the high.
I put the meaning in bliss,
I stopped askin why.
I wouldn’t wait for direction.
I wanted the acceptance.
I looked to people to prove,
strife and love
had no connection.
Still I hadn’t learned my lesson.
I wasn’t intimidated by my sins.
I tangled wit depression.
I was empty and reckless.
How I felt about me-?
my actions reflected.